transister.social

no this cyclone is not “bomb” why was i lied to it is at best mid

I convinced myself this year I’m incapable and incompetent. I thought I was literally just… permanently broken. Something fundamental about me had stopped functioning. I can’t express in words how complete a failure I felt, and that it was my fault completely for being broken.

This week has been a lot of vindication. My org still hasn’t listened to me whatsoever but have fucked up all other options and are slowly realizing everything I said was fucking right.

It’s a group of men so they won’t ever admit that though and it’ll be my fault for not convincing them.

But hell, men gonna men amirite

For the decade of time I lead software projects (management and/or team lead) my low water mark was 3 women on my team of 6-7 folks. My current org has 3 women on a team of nearly 30. I’ve had staff come to my team, hell to my COMPANY, to work on my teams.

I was not asked or consulted about my replacement I just showed up to at 8:30 am meeting my first day back, that lasted 10 minutes. “there have been some changes”

I took a mental health leave from work after being assaulted, when I got back they had removed me from leadership and replaced me with 3 people who are doing a far worse job. I also found out the replacement lead is struggling psychologically and wants to take mental health leave but is worried about her career.

I make both kinds of choices! bad, and terrible

here’s something that makes you think: butts

these fishes gay

Apple image AI really leans into emphasizing what it perceives as my gender and I find it unusable. It’s kinda unimpressive overall anyway, but its output feels like a fucking transphobic meme designed to antagonize trans women.

At least the cis ppl get uncanny valley selfies, as a treat 🙄

my therapist asked me yesterday if I was putting together my own sorta reverse-harem and i said:

"no, i just have to keep a few different boys around because they're useful for different things

"sometimes i need a boy who can fix things around the house, sometimes i need a boy who can stand around quietly and look good... heck sometimes i need a boy that's really a girl and hasn't figured it out yet!!"

in the way that therapists do, she just looked at me and waited.

remember to never play the lottery, that's how they catch time travelers

if you're upset with someone, stop and count to 10. if by 8 you aren't feeling better throw a sucker punch they never fucking expect it

yes you are absolutely free to call your anti-aging product "groomie's choice" i'm just saying you *shouldn't*

umm i like boy kissin’ but they have a tendency to turn out to be girls

best part about electrolysis is not having to talk, honestly worth getting electrocuted for sometimes

resilience, then resistance

living my truth by showing the world it’s okay to be straight, it’s not something to be ashamed of or hide

i wonder how many trans realizations are directly tied to political bullshittery

Fuck I’m cute

I hope Melissa is ok