I convinced myself this year I’m incapable and incompetent. I thought I was literally just… permanently broken. Something fundamental about me had stopped functioning. I can’t express in words how complete a failure I felt, and that it was my fault completely for being broken.
This week has been a lot of vindication. My org still hasn’t listened to me whatsoever but have fucked up all other options and are slowly realizing everything I said was fucking right.
It’s a group of men so they won’t ever admit that though and it’ll be my fault for not convincing them.
