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i post for attention and affection (it's a youngest child thing): memes, tech rambles, newly acquired domain names, and short irreverent nonsense i think is funny. ymmv.
seattle based. single parent. self-unemployed after >20 years in big tech
created 1st mastodon account: 2022-12-22
found out i was a girl: 2022-12-22
(former was causal to the latter)
i donāt use ai in my writing because it capitalizes words, and also because writing is the fun part for me (you do you!)
ask me about my banger domain names!
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no this cyclone is not ābombā why was i lied to it is at best mid
I convinced myself this year Iām incapable and incompetent. I thought I was literally just⦠permanently broken. Something fundamental about me had stopped functioning. I canāt express in words how complete a failure I felt, and that it was my fault completely for being broken.
This week has been a lot of vindication. My org still hasnāt listened to me whatsoever but have fucked up all other options and are slowly realizing everything I said was fucking right.
Itās a group of men so they wonāt ever admit that though and itāll be my fault for not convincing them.
But hell, men gonna men amirite
For the decade of time I lead software projects (management and/or team lead) my low water mark was 3 women on my team of 6-7 folks. My current org has 3 women on a team of nearly 30. Iāve had staff come to my team, hell to my COMPANY, to work on my teams.
I was not asked or consulted about my replacement I just showed up to at 8:30 am meeting my first day back, that lasted 10 minutes. āthere have been some changesā
I took a mental health leave from work after being assaulted, when I got back they had removed me from leadership and replaced me with 3 people who are doing a far worse job. I also found out the replacement lead is struggling psychologically and wants to take mental health leave but is worried about her career.
I make both kinds of choices! bad, and terrible
hereās something that makes you think: butts
Apple image AI really leans into emphasizing what it perceives as my gender and I find it unusable. Itās kinda unimpressive overall anyway, but its output feels like a fucking transphobic meme designed to antagonize trans women.
At least the cis ppl get uncanny valley selfies, as a treat š
my therapist asked me yesterday if I was putting together my own sorta reverse-harem and i said:
"no, i just have to keep a few different boys around because they're useful for different things
"sometimes i need a boy who can fix things around the house, sometimes i need a boy who can stand around quietly and look good... heck sometimes i need a boy that's really a girl and hasn't figured it out yet!!"
in the way that therapists do, she just looked at me and waited.
remember to never play the lottery, that's how they catch time travelers
if you're upset with someone, stop and count to 10. if by 8 you aren't feeling better throw a sucker punch they never fucking expect it
yes you are absolutely free to call your anti-aging product "groomie's choice" i'm just saying you *shouldn't*
umm i like boy kissinā but they have a tendency to turn out to be girls
best part about electrolysis is not having to talk, honestly worth getting electrocuted for sometimes
MTF HRT question
any mtf on hrt found they need to supplement their testosterone?
my levels are astoundingly low and I think itās impacting my mood
Iām on monotherapy (weekly EV injection, sometimes I remember to take prog), nonop, so there arenāt many variables to tweak
(boosts ok!)
resilience, then resistance
living my truth by showing the world itās okay to be straight, itās not something to be ashamed of or hide
i wonder how many trans realizations are directly tied to political bullshittery
Fuck Iām cute