transister.social

i like the added functionality of firefish (nee calckey)

but the ux choices and design aren't compatible with how my brain works and i hate it so much i'm sorruyyy

one day I will move to the next stage of transition; from "He looks like he lost a bet" to "She made bad decisions whilst spending her birthday Claire's gift card"

There is someone I follow that is eerily similar to me and I'm starting to worry about a fight-club situation (instead of fighting we're becoming girls)

reminiscing about the time I hid from a stripper in a gentlemen's club bathroom during my brother's bachelor party #cis

ex: "your not his type he's straight"
me: *grows boobs* :transgender_pride_potion:

also I've been trans long enough to know "straight" guys better than some rando cisbian :blobfoxsmug:

got some weird terfy kinda vibes from a girl, so I called myself a "gold star lesbian" and she got SO MAD

im going to be doing this lot more while I still can

lady, my bio says im autistic and learning about communism, what did you expect when you swiped right

got called 'miss' by a cashier, 10/10 would recommend

got a bunch of therapy homework today, gonna be hard to slot that in between my skyrim homework and communism studies

I didn't operate well as a cishet boy because I never caught a fish and thought "I gotta show this to some girls!"

Instead I thought "why am I out here?", and "I don't want to bother the fishes?", and ~though I didn't have the words for it yet~ "uwu"

today's mood

since coming out as trans I struggle with my old monogamous mindset., with all the choices on dating apps how can i choose just ONE person that gets to murder me

bumble is alternating between profiles like

"I'm a puppygirl looking for my owner!"
and
"I'm so quirky because my favorite food is tacos!"

he was an uwu boy
she said see you later boy
he wasn't girl enough for her

this girl alt was for escapism but now i am the girl

last electrolysis session I was in a very sad and volatile mood, and it really cheered me up. it's 28 days later and ~COINCIDENTALLY~ I'm in a sad and volatile mood again...

my dr gave me a gel I can put on beforehand to reduce the pain and before i could stop myself I just said "why?"

she just kinda shrugged and asked if I'm still in therapy

if you tack "you look happy and that is all that matters" after the end of your compliment~~ it does not count.

gonna head home and make some bad decisions :smiling_angel_devil:

a while back i took a writing class; the teacher's feedback was basically "you have your own custom build of crazy, you should just write about that"