transister.social

do any elixir devs wanna go in on a grant to make pleroma / akkoma scalable? https://nlnet.nl has a fediverse grant program, we could get €5k–€50k and split it. boosts appreciated

WILL YOU PRESS THE BUTTON?

you become the first person in your family to earnestly start to heal from generational trauma

BUT

you're queer and won't have kids, so your branch of the familial line ends at you

even if punintentional i'm still proud and love them

drug that makes you less weird to the point of turning into a normie. you take it before bed. next morning you wake up, shower and get dressed, then put on your apple watch and go on a morning run. you start a conversation with a dogwalker you know about how hard it is to find a good kindergarten. after that, you come back home and eat eggs for breakfast. you wake up your kids, and later drive them to school in the pickup truck that you got from your ex (he got to keep the house tho).

you go to work at the starbucks. you flirt with one of the customers and he invites you to a bar for a drink tonight. your coworkers make fun of you (lightheartedly). once your shift is over, you buy dinner at mcdonald's and pick up your kids from school. you tell them that you're busy tonight, but they don't mind since they're getting mcdonald's for dinner in return. you also notice that your son, who's older, smells of tobacco. however you decide to put that conversation off till next week maybe.

you put on a pretty dress and head out. the guy is late to meet you at the bar. the conversation starts lovely, but eventually he gets so excited to tell you his stories that he doesn't notice that you want to switch the topic and keeps interrupting you. bored and mildly woozy, all you can focus on is the missing button on his shirt. you also notice the red skin on his ring finger—must've taken the ring off right before entering the bar—and wonder if his wife knows what he's up to.

it's getting late. he awkwardly invites you to join him at a hotel. despite being fairly drunk, you resist the desire to agree, and make plans to see each other at the church next sunday. apparently his wife won't be joining.

you call a cab. the driver doesn't say much, but he does occasionally stare at you in the rear view mirror. it's somewhat unsettling, but you try not to worry. you slowly realize that you're high, or rather, were high. you remember that you don't have kids and you don't work at a starbucks. somehow the car arrives at the correct address. it's the apartment of a lonely and terminally online girl.

you take off your clothes and sit in bed with your laptop. you write a tripreport and send it to a discord server full of other lonely and terminally online girls hiding behind anime avatars. a few of them react with a vomiting emoji. the urge to pray before going to bed comes and goes in waves. your phone lights up with a slack notification. apparently your real coworkers spent the whole day trying to reset the firewall, but couldn't quite figure it out. you check your email and see a $300 bill. startled at first, you realize that you need to stop renewing at least a few of your unused domains. however after signing into the registrar panel, you get distracted and add cutegirlsbeing.gay to your collection instead.