transister.social

Feeling a weird confluence of emotions:

annoyed my ex abandoned her parenting responsibilities at a very tense time of my life

night turning super girly and high femme, like, we planned a spa day girly

I’ve been very subdued and dulled lately as a survival mechanism/trauma response (iykyk and my trans girlies at least probably do 😊), and I’ve started to carefully push back against that tendency.

It’s hard navigating the world as a trans woman, and if I don’t stay selfaware enough I slip into old patterns that served me well in the past or, more frequently now, serve others at my own expense.

When I get this way, I get quiet. I hide from everyone - even the friends and community I know I need. They don’t seem stable and safe; too present in my mind is that one small misstep and everything falls down once again.

Anyway that was kinda heavy so I’m gonna go get some pancakes with my daughter now, hope u enjoyed your dose of ginny lore

im staunchly against the death penalty but trans women should be able to descend en masse upon a man who says ‘men/transsexual women’ five times in their 500 character bio and enact whatever their favorite type of murder is. or just whatever murder vibes they are feeling that day, sort of play it by ear for the more improvisational types

Playing a game of “clockable trans girl or cishon” rn at the pancake house

Every now and again I’ll get a notification someone I slept with joined Signal and I do not like that functionality, like do I show up on there phone too, what if they try to talk to me again

Almost kicked someone in the shins for saying it’s a shame when good looking afabs transition, kinda fomo’ing now

I tried eyeliner and from what I can tell this product is an elaborate punk because no fucking way anyone can put this around their eyes without looking like a raccoon with a neurological disorder (no you cannot see)

Time for zappy zaps!

“I like this post except for the last sentence” button when

Sometimes it doesn’t really hurt that I still look masc because I can still see how fuckin cute I look even if I’m still “sir” to dumb cis people

I kinda miss seeing the meta dramas because they reminded me of old shows before cell phones, where the central problem could be solved with a 30 second conversation if people would just use their words at each other.

it has been 0 days since I had to search for a reddit post to rosetta stone some zoomer shit @FiringSquadsEnjoyer said

she sure looks cute with bangs…… hmmm

my self care routine is a soft serve ice cream cone and (usa) large coca cola, why don’t I have bigger tits yet

when I almost boost and like a post by a trans lady who openly stated she had been waiting for everyone else to hate my gross tranny ass

Sort of getting mentally prepared for my thanksgiving trip to visit my family…

• estranged dad, fortunately he’s out of it most of the time. He’s a Trump boy and from stories I’ve heard is probably an egg that rotted because it never cracked

• troll conservative brother, who is generally not badly intentioned but see the first part of this sentence

• (possibly) my estranged brother who I hear recently bought a tesla 🙄. When I came out he asked me if I was sure given how dangerous it is (iirc something along the lines of the only type of people more hated than trans women are Black trans women), and then never checked in on his little sister the past 3 years.

• going to NC, even in RTP, is kinda spooky

• general anxiety for my first time flying/traveling anywhere in over 2 years

• one time I saw a really big spider there, like problematically large

• “supportive cis people” (iykyk)

I’ve always seen any social media platform with a text box as a place to post 1-2 line quips and it is right now that i realize that is weird

this is a safe space for typography of all kinds

Trying to make household chores sound like sexy metaphors to trick boys into doing them/me

“sir”